WELL, LOTS OF THOUGHTS GOING THROUGH MY MIND. I'M 26 YEARS OLD, AND SEEM SO LOST IN TRANSLATION. I FEEL SO MISGUIDED BY MYSELF. A PART OF ME WANTS TO JUST GET MARRIED, HAVE KIDS, BUY A HOUSE, FIND A TRUE CAREER AND LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER. UM...YEAH. IT WILL BE MY 2ND MARRIAGE, HAVE A 7 YEAR OLD WHO DOESN'T LIVE WITH ME, LIVE IN AN APARTMENT, AND HAVE A RETAIL JOB.
WHAT AND HOW CAN I MAKE THESE CHANGES? WHAT STEPS DO I NEED TO FOLLOW? I KNOW THE THINGS I WANT I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO PRIORITIZE THEM OR GET ON THE RIGHT FOOT. WHAT IS STOPPING ME? IN MY MIND...MONEY. WHY IS MONEY PRETTY MUCH THE KEY TO EVERYONE'S HAPPINESS INCLUDING MINE? IT TAKES MONEY TO HAVE A WEDDING (EVEN A CHEAP ONE), MONEY TO HAVE KIDS TO RAISE (OR POSSIBLY IN MY CASE, AN ALTERNATIVE TO INFERTILITY), $$$ TO BUY A HOUSE, AND EVERYTHING THAT GOES WITH IT. I HAVE A GEMINI MIND. I HAVE A LOT OF INTERESTS AS FAR AS CAREERS. I ALWAYS THOUGHT I WOULD LIKE TO TRY DENTAL HYGIENIST, REAL ESTATE, FEDERAL JOB, OR STAY AT HOME MOM.MY FIANCE WANTS TO LOOK AT HOUSES FOR SALE WHEN HE GETS BACK FROM CALIFORNIA. WE REALLY DON'T HAVE A WHOLE LOT OF MONEY, OR WHAT I CALL SALARY RICH, CASH POOR. ALTHOUGH WE ARE DOING WAY BETTER ON BILLS AND BALANCES ARE COMING DOWN. SO MANY THINGS TO CHOOSE AND ACT UPON. WHAT I REALLY WANT TO DO IS TO START SAVING FOR THE WEDDING IN HAWAII, AND THE RECEPTION IN SPOKANE. THEN TO BUY THE HOUSE. NOW WHETHER WE GET THE HOUSE BEFORE A CHILD, NOT SURE, BUT THEN IF I AM ON HIS INSURANCE I CAN EXPLORE OPTIONS FOR TREATMENT TO HAVE KIDS. HMMMM, NOT 100% SURE HOW TO DO EVERYTHING YET.