NOT A WHOLE LOT GOING ON. BEEN HAVING A FEW EMOTIONAL OUTBURSTS BY MYSELF. I'VE BEEN THINKING MORE AND MORE ABOUT MY DAUGHTER. I'VE BEEN THINKING MORE ABOUT THE COURT CASES THAT I WENT THROUGH TO GET HER BACK. MY MIND HAS BEEN THINKING HOW DID I LOSE THE CASE IN COURT? HOW DID THE JUDGE DECIDE THAT I WAS A HORRIBLE PERSON AND DIDN'T DESERVE TO RAISE HER ONLY CHILD?
SO, SINCE THEN I FINALLY GOT A HOLD OF THE ATTORNEY THAT WAS ON MY LEGAL COUNSEL AND I TOLD HIM I WANT A COPY OF THE ENTIRE CASE. I WANT TO REVIEW ALL OF THE DOCUMENTS AND SEE WHAT FINDINGS ON ALL SIDES SUBMITTED. I DON'T KNOW LEGALLY IN ANOTHER STATE IF I EVEN HAVE A LEG TO STAND ON, TO EVEN ATTEMPT TO GO BACK TO COURT EVEN IF FOR JOINT CUSTODY. I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO GET ALL OF THIS OUT OF MY HEART AND MIND.