A PAST LOVE
written @ 1:05 A.M. on 27 November 2005

OK, SO I WAS DEAD TIRED ON FRIDAY NIGHT. I REMEMBER JUST PLOPPING DOWN ON THE BED AND TAKING A BREATH, AND DAMN I WAS OUT. I DIDN'T WAKE UP UNTIL MORNING.

WELL, I WOKE UP AFTER HAVING A DREAM ABOUT MY EX-BOYFRIEND, ADAM. HE WAS MY FIRST LOVE WHEN I WAS 15. WE WERE TOGETHER FOR LIKE A LITTLE LESS THAN 2 YRS. WE LIVED TOGETHER FOR ABOUT A YEAR. I MOVED IN THE DAY BEFORE MY 16TH BDAY WITH HIM AND HIS DAD. WE HAD THE MOST FUN. WE WERE ALWAYS TOGETHER, DID HOMEWORK TOGETHER, EVERYTHING FUN. HE WAS STILL BY FAR THE BEST KISSER. MY HUSBAND AND I DON'T "MAKE OUT," WE JUST KINDA PECK. YES, WE WERE YOUNG KIDS. HE WAS ABOUT 7 MONTHS OLDER THAN I. ADAM WAS A REALLY GREAT GUY. I KNOW HE LOVED ME AND WAS IN LOVE WITH ME. SO,THINGS GOT REAL SHAKY, AND EVENTUALLY BROKE UP CUZ I MOVED TO THE TRI-CITIES. I THINK WE BROKE UP BECAUSE WE WERE TRYING TO BE SO GROWN UP TOO FAST. HERE WE WERE RENTING A HOUSE WITH A ROOMMATE AT AGE 16. NOT THE BRIGHTEST. OH WELL, WE'RE PAST THAT ALREADY.

SO, I TALKED TO MY FRIEND BUSTER, HE LOOKED ME UP ON CLASSMATES. HE MENTIONED THAT HE USED TO SEE ADAM WORKING IN A PHARMACY WHILE BUSTER WOULD MAKE HIS DELIVERIES.WELL THEN HE STOPPED SEEING ADAM THERE, AND HE ASKED A GAL WHAT HAPPENED TO HIM. SHE MENTIONED THAT HE HAD BEEN ARRESTED FOR PROSTITUTION!!!!OMG! I DON'T KNOW IF HE WAS THE GIVER, OR RECEIVER! SO, THE CURIOSITY GOT THE BEST OF ME, AND I GOT ONLINE TO DO A CRIMINAL BACKGROUND CHECK, AND BACK IN SEPTEMBER OF 2000 HE WAS ARRESTED FOR "DISORDERLY CONDUCT," AND ASSAULT DOMESTIC VIOLENCE. BEFORE THAT, HE WAS IN FOR DRIVING ON SUSPENDED 3RD TIME AND NO LICENSE ON HIM. SO, WHEN I DID SEE THE DISORDERLY CONDUCT CHARGE, I WAS THINKING, OK, WAS HE DRUNK IN PUBLIC, OR DOING SOMETHING STUPID SINCE DISORDERLY CONDUCT COULD BE DEFINED UNDER DIFFERENT MEANINGS. SO I LOOKED UNDER THE STATE STATUTE CODE FOR THE 10.10.020 VIOLATION, IT SAYS:10.10.020 Criminal solicitation.
A. A person is guilty of criminal solicitation when, with intent to promote or facilitate the commission of an offense under the ordinances of the city, he offers to give or gives money or thing of value to another to engage in specific conduct which would constitute such offense or which would establish complicity of such other person in its commission or attempted commission had such offense been attempted or committed.

B. Criminal solicitation is a misdemeanor. (Ord. 1145-85 � 29, 1985)
( I LOVE TO DO THE COPY & PASTE METHOD!)

SO, THERE IT IS. I ALSO HEARD THAT IT WAS HIM PIMPING HIMSELF OUT. I DON'T KNOW IF THAT IS TRUE. SO I HAD A DREAM ABOUT HIM. IT WASN'T ABOUT US GETTING BACK TOGETHER ROMANTICALLY, IT WAS ABOUT JUST ASKING HOW HE WAS DOING AND JUST CHATTING. WHEN I LIVED IN SPOKANE, I WAS ON THE PARTY PHONE LINE (TRYING TO FIND OUT WHAT EVERYONE IN TOWN WAS TALKING ABOUT) AND I WAS CONNECTED TO HIM ONLINE. I NEVER TOLD HIM MY REAL NAME. WE TALKED ABOUT 5 MIN BEFORE I DISCONNECTED THE PARTY LINE. HE HAD MENTIONED THAT HE WAS SINGLE, AND THAT HE HADN'T BEEN MARRIED. HE SAID HE WAS ENGAGED ONCE TO A GAL THAT MOVED TO TRI-CITIES...AKA "ME" AND THAT HE WASN'T SURE IF HE WAS LOOKING FOR ANOTHER RELATIONSHIP. I COULDN'T LISTEN TO IT ANYMORE, I THOUGHT IF I DID, I'D TOTALLY BLOW MY "FAKE NAME DISGUISE" AND TELL HIM IT WAS REALLY ME! THE LAST TIME I HAD SEEN ADAM WAS IN 1996 WHEN HE WAS DRIVING THROUGH TRI-CITIES. I EVEN HAVE A PHOTO OF US. IN THE PHOTO, WE STILL LOOKED LIKE WE WERE A HAPPY COUPLE. WEIRD. I KINDA WANT TO GET A HOLD OF HIM JUST TO SAY HI. I'M CURIOUS. OF COURSE MANY GIRLS...MYSELF INCLUDED, NEVER FORGET THEIR FIRST LOVES. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THE KIND OF PERSON TO THINK RANDOMLY OF PEOPLE THAT I'VE KNOWN. I AM NATURALLY A CURIOUS PERSON. I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHY I HAD A DREAM ABOUT HIM, OR WHY I CAN'T GET HIM OFF OF MY BRAIN. IS IT POSSIBLE TO CURE THE CURIOSITY IN ME AND JUST FIND HIS PHONE NUMBER AND JUST CALL AND SAY HI? I HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE. I WANT NOTHING FROM HIM AND HAVE NOTHING TO OFFER. SO I GUESS IT WOULDN'T BE TOO BAD. I DON'T KNOW. I GUESS I COULD TAKE THE 1ST STEP AND OBTAIN HIS PHONE # SOMEHOW, THEN GO FROM THERE. WELL, I GUESS I WILL STOP WRITING FOR NOW AND GO TO BED.

|

new old me rings mail notes book design host


Cool Stuff at BlingJam.com