YES, I WILL OPENLY SAY "I HATE FOOTBALL!" I HAVE HONESTLY TRIED TO WATCH IT YEARS AGO, BUT I HATE THE FACT THAT THE GAME IS SO FREAKIN' LONG AND BORING. I HATE HOW THEY START AND STOP EVERY 4 SECONDS, WAIT FOR THE CALL, LINE BACK UP AGAIN, I DON'T LIKE THE COMMENTARY, ETC. IT DRIVES ME NUTS. I'M SO GLAD THE SEASON IS OVER.
NOT MUCH TODAY AT WORK, I DID HAVE SOME SALES, BUT THEN AFTER 3:30PM IT DIED, SINCE THE GAME WAS ON. I'M UP #1 SO FAR FOR THE NEW SALES PERIOD. IT FEELS GOOD, BUT I DON'T USUALLY LET IT GO TO MY HEAD. I GUESS YOU COULD SAY I'M THE NEXT PERSON IN CHARGE, SINCE "EVIL" RETIRED. SO WE ARE 1 PERSON SHORT OF AN ASSISTANT MANAGER. OUR NEW GAL STARTS TOMORROW. SHE SEEMS NICE, BUT SHE'S ANOTHER SMOKER! YUCK. AND SHE DOES KNOW "EVIL" SO I'LL HAVE TO WATCH MY MOUTH. "EVIL" DID COME INTO THE STORE TODAY, IT WAS THE 1ST TIME I'D SEEN HER SINCE SHE QUIT. I'M STILL SOOOO GLAD SHE IS FUCKIN' GONE. WOOHOO. IT'S NICE AND QUIET, AND PEACEFUL.
I HAD THE OTHER EMPLOYEE HELP OUT WITH SOME PROJECTS THAT HAD TO BE DONE TO HELP WITH THE MANAGER TRAIN THE NEW GAL TOMORROW. THE GAL I WORKED WITH TODAY IS GREAT. I DO LIKE HER A LOT, AND WE HAVE GREAT PERSONALITY CHARACTERISTICS WHEN WE WORK TOGETHER. I'VE NOTICED TODAY, THAT SHE EATS A LOT OF JUNK FOOD. LIKE, A LOT OF SWEETS, COFFEE DRINKS, AND FAST FOOD LIKE NO TOMORROW. SHE HAS COMPLAINED OF HAVING BOWEL PROBS,& HOW FOOD GOES RIGHT THROUGH HER...DAMN GIRL CAN WE THINK ABOUT HOW THAT HAPPENS? I'VE NEVER REALLY EVER SEEN HER EAT A SALAD BEFORE. OH WELL, NOT MY BODY. ALTHOUGH SHE DID SHOW ME A PHOTO OF HERSELF YEARS AGO, AND I COULD BARELY RECOGNIZE HER. SHE WAS SO SKINNY AND MOUSEY. SHE WAS A CUTE THING! I WONDER IF SHE HAS PCOS TOO BUT NOT KNOW ABOUT IT YET. I THINK SHE SHOULD GO SEE A DOCTOR.
WELL, NO WALKS ALL LAST WEEK....BOOHOO. HOPEFULLY IF THE WEATHER IS BETTER TOMORROW AND COLLEEN AND I FEEL UP TO IT, WE'LL JUST WALK 4 MILES TO KINDA MAKE UP FOR IT. I HAVE SOME ERRANDS TO RUN ON MONDAY. HUBBY TOLD ME HE WANTS TO HAVE THE 1ST SEASON OF "LOST" ON DVD. HE WAS TOLD IT'S A GOOD SHOW, AND TO GIVE IT A TRY. SO I GUESS THAT WILL BE HIS BDAY GIFT. I'M TAKING HIM OUT TO A STEAK DINNER TOMORROW NIGHT. HIS BDAY IS ACTUALLY ON TUESDAY, BUT SINCE HE IS OUT OF TOWN OVERNIGHT FOR AN AUDIT, WE'LL CELEBRATE EARLY.
WHILE AT WORK TODAY, HUBBY CALLED AND TOLD ME THAT HE TALKED TO GRAMMA AND THAT SHE TOLD HIM THAT MY MOM WAS REALLY SICK, AND THAT I SHOULD GIVE HER A CALL. I TOLD HIM WHATEVER. I DON'T GIVE A SHIT. SHE PROBABLY JUST NEEDS TO DIE. SHE'S SO MISERABLE WITH HER OWN DAMN LIFE, BUT WON'T HELP HERSELF TO MAKE ANYTHING BETTER OR HAPPY. I STILL HAVEN'T GOTTEN A BDAY CARD FROM MY OWN MOTHER IN THE PAST FEW YEARS (UM...WE HAVE THE SAME BDAY, SO NO EXCUSE THERE HUH?!!)STILL HAVEN'T GOTTEN A XMAS CARD OR A PHONE CALL. I HAVEN'T SEEN OR HEARD FROM HER SINCE MY WEDDING IN '04. I FIGURE WHEN SHE WANTS TO BE IN MY LIFE, SHE'LL LET ME KNOW. I CAN'T KEEP ASKING HER TO LET ME INTO HERS AND TO PRETEND THAT WE HAVE A MOTHER-DAUGHTER RELATIONSHIP. HE KEPT TELLING ME I NEED TO CONTACT MY MOM AND GRAMMA SO IN CASE SOMETHING HAPPENS, I WON'T HAVE ANY REGRETS. WELL, AS FAR AS I'M CONCERNED, THEY'LL BOTH CALL ME WHEN THEY'RE DONE THROWING A FIT. I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR PEOPLE LIKE THAT IN MY LIFE. I'M OLD ENOUGH NOW, THAT I CAN TELL THEM WHAT I THINK AND WHERE TO GO AND HOW TO KISS MY ASS. I'M DONE.
YES, I KNOW IF SOMETHING WERE TO HAPPEN, I'D BE SAD, BUT WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO SAY OR DO? I'M TIRED OF BEING TREATED LIKE THIS BY MY OWN FAMILY. I HAVE FELT LIKE AN ORPHAN ALL OF MY LIFE. I NEVER GREW UP WITH SIBLINGS, THERE WERE LIES AND COVERUPS IN MY CHILDHOOD FROM OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS. I DIDN'T EVEN MEET MY LONG LOST HALF BROTHER UNTIL I WAS LIKE 17. WHAT A SHAME. WE COULD'VE BEEN CLOSER! I'M GLAD WE KNOW EACH OTHER NOW. MY DAD HAS BEEN IN AND OUT OF LIFE AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO GET A HOLD OF HIM. BUT THEN AGAIN, I THINK I'M BETTER OFF WITHOUT BOTH OF MY PARENTS. I'VE MADE MORE MONEY THAN MY MOM IN HER WHOLE LIFE IN MY NEARLY 12 YRS OF MY WORKING EXPERIENCE. I HEARD SHE'S OUT OF A JOB, GEE NO SURPRISE.
AS FAR BACK AS I CAN REMEMBER, I ALWAYS USED TO ASK MY MOM IF WE COULD BUY A BROTHER OR SISTER FROM AN ORPHANAGE SO I COULD HAVE A PLAYMATE. I WAS SO LONELY, AND THERE WERE ONLY SO MANY THINGS YOU COULD LEGITIMATELY BLAME ON THE CAT! I'VE ALWAYS WANTED A FAMILY. I GUESS THAT'S WHY I'VE ALWAYS BEEN LATCHED ONTO MY BEST FRIEND'S FAMILY, SINCE THEY'VE ALWAYS WELCOMED ME. AFTER ALL THESE YEARS, I STILL FEEL EMPTY AND ALONE TO A POINT. I REALLY WISH MY FAMILY WOULD GET THEIR SHIT TOGETHER AND ACT LIKE ADULTS. I'M NOT THE PERFECT ONE, BUT I'M PRETTY MATURE AND KNOW KINDA WHAT I WANT, AND DEMAND JUST AS MUCH RESPECT. NOT MUCH TO ASK.
WELL TO MY "SISTER" CONGRATS ON GETTING HER NEW LAPTOP! I CAN'T WAIT FOR HER WRITINGS! I ALSO MISS READING HER DIARY ALL THE TIME! HEEHEE.