HERE I GO AGAIN! WOW, 2 MONTHS HAVE GONE BY, WITH SO MUCH TO TELL. I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN!
I GUESS I COULD START OFF WITH HOW THINGS ARE GOING WITH MY DAUGHTER. I GOT TO SEE HER TODAY AS A MATTER OF FACT. I TOOK HER SCHOOL SHOPPING. SHE HAS CHANGED, AND WHAT I MEAN IS HER ATTITUDE. SHE IS VERY ARGUMENTATIVE, NON-NEGOTIABLE, AND VERY QUICK-WITTED...BASICALLY ME! SHE IS VERY STUBBORN. ALTHOUGH I'VE NOTICED SHE SAYS A LOT OF NEGATIVE THINGS WHEREAS SHE USED TO BACK EVERYTHING UP WITH A POSITIVE, OR NOT SAY IT AT ALL.
DEEP DOWN I KNOW A BIT OF IT IS HER PEERS AT SCHOOL, AND NO DOUBT A BIT FROM HER GRANDPARENTS. HER GRANDPARENTS USUALLY ARE VERY POSITIVE. I'VE LEARNED SINCE THAT SHE'S ALLOWED TO HAVE A COMPUTER AND A TV IN HER ROOM. I WAS CHEWED OUT BY HER GRAMMA THAT SHE DISBELIEVES KIDS SHOULD HAVE ELECTRONICS IN THEIR ROOMS. HMMMMM. WHATEVER.
I'M STILL FEELING LOST AS WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE. I JUST HAD MY 10 YR CLASS REUNION, AND I'M NOT IN A PROFESSIONAL CAREER AS I THOUGHT I'D BE, AND I DON'T HAVE CUSTODY OF MY CHILD. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. SHOULD I GO BACK TO SCHOOL, SHOULD I PURSUE CUSTODY OF MY DAUGHTER, SHOULD I TRY TO GO TO HAVE IVF FERTILITY TREATMENTS, ETC? THESE ARE THE EVERYDAY BATTLES WITH MY MIND.
AS I MENTIONED, I DID HAVE MY 10 YR CLASS REUNION. WOW, HOW PEOPLE CHANGE. IT CERTAINLY WAS ODD, BUT KINDA COOL. EVEN THOUGH WE'RE ALL GROWN UP, WE STILL WENT BACK TO OUR CLIQUES. I BROUGHT DEJAH & SHAWN WITH ME. WE SAT WITH DALE & HIS GAL JESS, AND MY PAL CARLYE. IT WAS NICE. WE DIDN'T LIKE MINGLE OR ANYTHING. THERE WAS A FEW RAFFLES THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT, AND A FEW TIMES I MISSED IT BY A DIGIT. I FINALLY GOT THE GRAND FINALE RAFFLE. IT WAS A BASKET WITH SOME WASH CLOTHS AND TOWELS, DECORATIVE SOAP, LOTION, SHOWER GEL, BUBBLE BATH, A CERTIFICATE TO TONY ROMA'S, TACO BELL, TWO MOVIE TICKETS, A BOTTLE OF PRIMO WASHINGTON STATE WINE, A MASSAGER, AND A ONE NIGHT STAY IN THE MASTER SUITE OF A LOCAL BED AND BREAKFAST (WHO IS RUN BY MY FORMER SCIENCE TEACHER AND NEIGHBOR.) THE REST OF THE NIGHT WAS NICE. NOT A WHOLE LOT OF PEOPLE SHOWED UP OUT OF A GRADUATION CLASS OF OVER 300.
WORK HAS BEEN WORK. WE ARE SHORT HANDED AGAIN, I'VE WORKED A FEW 12 HR SHIFTS, AND MADE SOME GOOD COMMISSIONS. IT'S BEEN PRETTY FUN TO SELL LATELY. LOT OF NICE PEOPLE. I WAS TOP PERFORMER LAST MONTH. THAT FELT GOOD. I REALLY WORKED HARD. THIS MONTH TOO. "DRAMA QUEEN" IS STILL AT IT. I CAN'T STAND THAT SHE STRUTS. SHE TAKES PERSONAL CALLS ON THE SALES FLOOR AND IT MAKES IT LOOK LIKE WE'RE UN-PROFESSIONAL. SHE GIVES A BAD IMAGE TO OUR STORE. AND SHE'S GOING THRU A DIVORCE AND BOTH HER AND HER EX ARE GOING AT IT. SO IMMATURE. SHE HAS 2 LITTLE GIRLS THAT ARE AT THEIR MERCY. SHE IS ALWAYS CALLING INTO WORK TO SWITCH SHIFTS LAST MINUTE, OR TO BE LATE, OR NOT COME IN AT ALL. VERY ANNOYING. MY CO-HORT WILL BE STUDENT TEACHING THIS FALL, SO SHE IS DONE WORKING WITH US. I STILL MEET UP WITH HER TO GO TO WEIGHT WATCHERS. I REALLY DO ENJOY HER COMPANY AND HUMOR.
WELL, LET'S SEE.........I'M FURIOUS AT MY HUSBAND. HE HAS REALLY PISSED ME OFF. THIS IS WHY. I'VE ASKED HIM FOR MONTHS AND MONTHS IF OUR BILLS AND HIS MEDICAL BILLS WERE BEING PAID. HE SAID HE HAD IT TAKEN CARE OF AND UNDER CONTROL. I SHOULDA BEEN NOSEY. WELL ONE DAY HE TELLS ME THAT HIS CHECK WAS GARNISHED TO PAY A MEDICAL BILL THAT HAD BECOME A COURT JUDGEMENT. OOOOOOOOOO!!!! I COULD SPIT NAILS. SO WE ENDED UP GOING TO TALK TO AN ATTORNEY ABOUT FILING BANKRUPTCY. I NEVER THOUGHT IT WOULD COME TO THIS. I HATE NOT OWNING UP TO CONSEQUENCES. I BELIEVE IF YA RUN IT UP, YA PAY IT OFF. SO I GUESS WE WILL HAVE TO FILE A CHAPTER 13, WHICH ISN'T SO BAD IN MY EYE, CUZ WE STILL HAVE TO PAY MOST OF IT BACK. I CAN AGREE WITH THAT. I WORKED SOOOO HARD ALL THESE YEARS TO HAVE A WONDERFUL CREDIT SCORE AFTER BEING MARRIED TO MY 1ST HUSBAND. I HAD STELLAR CREDIT UNTIL NOW, I WAS SO LIVID WHEN HUBBY TOLD ME THAT WE HAD A JUDGEMENT THAT HAD MY NAME ON IT FOR HIS BILL, EVEN THOUGH I KNOW IT IS A COMMUNITY PROPERTY STATE. RAWR!!!! HE LIED TO ME. I FELT SO BETRAYED. I ASKED HIM TO HIS FACE, AND HE DISRESPECTED ME. THE LEAST HE COULDA SAID IS, UM THINGS ARE NOT OK, AND I COULD USE YOUR SUPPORT AND UNDERSTANDING. SAY IT LIKE A MAN. I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO. A JUDGEMENT ON OUR BUREAU IS WORSE THAN BANKRUPTCY. I DIDN'T WANT THIS WAY OUT. SO THAT'S ANOTHER TO WORRY ABOUT.
MY GRAMMA HAD BACK SURGERY ON THE 20TH OF JUNE. SHE IS NOW HOME. SHE HAD HER 2ND SURGERY ON THE 25TH OF JUNE, AND IT WAS TOUCH AND GO. IT WAS SO BAD. THEN I HAD TO TELL HER THAT WE NEED TO FILE BANKRUPTCY, AND WE OWE HER LIKE $8000, AS WELL AS $2500 TO HER EX-HUBBY. TELLING FAMILY IS THE WORST. I TOLD HER WE WILL PAY HER THE WHOLE AMOUNT. I DON'T CARE WHAT THE TREASURY PAYS HER. IF I NEED TO GIVE HER MY COMMISSION AND ANY TAX REFUNDS, I WILL. I MADE A PROMISE. I COULD JUST ABOUT CARE LESS ABOUT THE MAJOR BANKS THAT WE ARE IN DEBT TO, BUT I WILL NOT DO THAT TO HER OR GRAMPA. I FELT LIKE A FAILURE. BUT ANYWAYS, SHE WAS IN THE HOSPITAL A FEW WEEKS, THEN WENT TO REHAB FOR ANOTHER 1-2 WEEKS. SHE THEN WENT HOME. I WENT UP THERE EVERY WEEK FOR LIKE 5 WEEKS. I'VE BEEN ON THE GO EVERY DAY OFF I'VE HAD, LET ALONE THROWING IN SOME 12 HR SHIFTS.
I EVEN JUST RECENTLY WENT ALL THE WAY DOWN TO EUGENE OREGON TO VISIT MY SISTER FOR HER BRIDAL SHOWER. AND STUPID MONIQUE IS STILL DUMB! I COULD JUST PUNCH HER IN THE HEAD. SHE BACKED OUT OF HELPING ME WITH THE PARTY SUPPLIES. MY SIS AND I HAD 50 MINUTES TO GO TO WALMART, GET BALLOONS, AND COSTCO ON A SATURDAY, AND STILL DRIVE OUT TO GO SET UP! WE PULLED IT OFF THOUGH WITHOUT STUPID MONIQUE. OOO SHE IS ON MY NERVES AGAIN. THERE'S MORE TO THE STORY, BUT I HAVE NO ENERGY TO GO THERE. I HAD A GREAT TIME WITH MY SIS AND HER FIANCE. I EVEN WENT TO A TATTOO PARLOR TO TRY TO FIND A DESIGN FOR MY HUBBY. HE WANTS A MAD AND GOOD DONALD DUCK TATTTOO! I FIGURED I COULD FIND ONE THERE IN EUGENE HENCE THE UNIVERSITY OF OREGON DUCKS! MY SIS TURNED ME ONTO A COMEDIAN NAMED JIM GAFFIGAN. SO FUNNY. GOOD CD. WE ORDERED MY MATRON OF HONOR DRESS, AND SHOPPED AROUND. GOOD TIMES.
WELL, I THINK I'M DONE TYPING TONIGHT. I'LL TRY TO NOT LET IT GO SO LONG NEXT TIME. IT'S MY OWN FAULT. SORRY LOYAL READERS!